Welcome to my first post about the travels of the Fatima rosary beads. Ten rosaries have been sent out to people all over the country by requests I received. Each week I hope to bring to you personal experiences of individuals who pray on a Fatima rosary (as part of the Blessings Go Round initiative to make the world a more blessed place through prayer.) I am honored to bring this to you and hope you enjoy reading about real people’s experiences and their spiritual journey with a Fatima rosary. Information is at the bottom of this post on how you can pray on one of the rosaries and pass on to another person.
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I would like to introduce you to from Cat in WI. Some of you may already be familiar with her, knowing her as CatCanPaint. http://www.etsy.com/shop/catcanpaint I was so honored that Cat was a part of Blessings Go Round the rosary and prayer initiative. Not only because of her deep spiritual beliefs in miracles, but her openness and turning to this opportunity for seeking more guidance as she worked through some complicated issues in her life. Please enjoy viewing her original artwork as you read her story.
This is Cat. She is radient 🙂
I asked Cat for a brief ‘Who Am I’ bio: I have always loved animals, and because of that became a vegetarian many decades ago. I am in my 50’s, and am experiencing what I would call a “return to who I am” or a “re-discovery” or a genuine understanding of my inner nature, the paths I have taken, and those I have not, and maybe why…
Being a vegetarian, I got little support and felt that my individual efforts didn’t matter much in making changes for the animals. Then in a Rip Van Winkle moment, my oldest daughter announced that she was going vegan, and I was transported back all those decades, feeling those same strong feelings again.
I also dropped dairy and egg from my diet. And much to my total surprise, several serious health conditions that I had cleared up completely, including the pain of osteoarthritis.
So now I am vegan, and somewhat of an armchair activist for the animals. And though I became vegan for ethical reasons, I am learning about the nutritional advantages.
And the veterinarian thing… I had at one time wondered if I had messed up and had missed my calling, but I now realize that this desire sprung from my love and connection to animals, and that the business aspect of such a career would have made working in this capacity impossible for me. At the vet I overheard a conversation about a dog that had to be turned away because the owner could not afford to pay… If I were a veterinarian I could never turn anyone away for lack of money… so had I become one, I would undoubtedly been a bankrupt one…
And, at least for myself, I can see that all the gifts that I was given by God, were all there in the early years… the person that I am today, is who I have always been, though my soul has grown in understanding, and my compassion widened, through all the experiences and trials along the way.
I believe in non-violence, am a great admirer of the writings of Fr. John Dear (Jesuit priest) Here is my favorite quote of Fr. Dear’s:
“If we care for the earth, we must end both corporate greed and extreme poverty. As we make these connections, we will deepen our spiritual understanding of reality and see everything as a spiritual issue, a life-and-death issue. We are not allowed to destroy the Creator’s creation; we are not allowed to wreak such havoc on the earth or on God’s children. We are called to practice nonviolence in every aspect of life.” ~Fr. John Dear “Put Down Your Sword”
I am also a mother (of five), an artist, and a volunteer raptor handler. I do believe that one day everything will be restored as God created it, and the lion will lie down with the lamb… and I can’t wait for this wonderful day…
Now that you have gotten to know the woman, here is the story of her experience with the Fatima rosary in her own words:
I have been struggling with what to write… I am currently experiencing a very rough patch in my life right now, very rough, probably the roughest so far… struggling with a lot of things… but the personal details (because it would take a lot of explaining and background) are probably not as significant (to others) as the results of my spiritual discoveries, after receiving the Fatima rosary.
I don’t recall if the tsunami in Japan hit just before I got the rosary or shortly after… but that whole scenario certainly dwarfs my personal troubles… and I cried every time I turned on the TV, powerless too help, other than sending love and prayers to all affected by this disaster…
And some people may wonder how God lets things like this happen, but I do know that all who struggle and suffer are blessed with growth in spirit, and they do find God’s arms wrapping around them. And I was so touched and amazed at the strength of the Japanese people… waiting in line for hours to get food rations without complaining, selflessly helping each other and the ones most in need of attention. There was a Japanese couple highlighted on one of the news programs–they were hurriedly repairing their damaged home so that they could then move on to help their neighbors…
I remember Anna asking me which rosary I wanted, and I knew that it did not matter, and that any one that she sent would be wonderful. Secretly, I was hoping for the dark blue one, though (I don’t know why, other than I liked the depth of it’s color).
As I opened the package I felt a chill, like a flu-like chill throughout my body. It was very real, and very odd, because I was sitting right by a heating vent in my home that was blowing warm air on me at that very moment.
The rosary was light blue, and beautiful…
I held it in my hands and inspected it… Inscribed on the little medallion was “terra de fatima”… earth of Fatima…
My sick kitty was sleeping at the windowsill, and I pressed the earth of Fatima on the bare skin of his back where the fur had been shaved off months before, but had not grown back (the place where his pain patch had been placed after a lifesaving surgery). He began to purr loudly… God has placed this beautiful, but sick animal in my care, and I have learned so much from him about love, hope, and the fragility of life…
One of Cat’s original works of art.
The gray light of day streaming through the window, suddenly became infused with sun, and lit up the cat’s white fur, and made the rosary sparkle. There was a clear glass bowl of water on the floor nearby, and it became animated in the brilliant light. The colors of the peach flowers and deep green of the rug reflected vibrantly in the water, and I could see the moving branches of trees outside of the window, mirrored and dancing in the water too.
There were also some white shapes in the water, reflected from something in the room, and they almost looked like wings, white wings hugging the clear glass dish.
Ok, so I have a creative imagination… maybe…
I then put my new rosary in my pocket… the dog needed to be walked, so I set out to do that…
I was a half a block from home when I ran into a friend who lives a few blocks away, who I had not seen in awhile. She was walking her two little Chihuahuas, and was actually on her way to my house with a gift for me. It was a book and meditation CD that she found helpful,l and thought I might too. I showed her the Fatima rosary, and told her about the Blessings Go Round. And she told me that she had just sent me an email before she had left the house, and that I should check my email inbox when I got home.
So when I got home with my new rosary, and the gift from my friend, I went to check my email. My friend had sent the email at exactly at the same time that I was contemplating the reflections and wing-like shapes in the water bowl. The email was entitled “Blessings” and it said “You have received this angel because you at some point in life have been an angel. No one saw your wings but they felt your love.” There is a drawing of 2 white wings accompanying the email…
And one thing led to another… the meditation book/cd from my friend helped me tremendously, as did some music cds that I stumbled upon. I began listening to “Revelation Song” by Kari Jobe every time I went anywhere in my car, as well as 3 other tracts from another album, “Painted Red” by JJ Heller. ( “Save Me,” “Your Hands,” and “Painted Red”)
The words from “Your Hands” highlight my recent spiritual journey:
I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn’t there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That you take my pain away…
I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crooked lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine…
When my world is shaking, heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave your hands
When you walked upon the earth
You healed the broken, lost and hurt
I know you hate to see me cry
One day you will set all things right
Yeah, one day you will set all things right
Your hands that shaped the world
Are holding me
They hold me still
And since I have had and prayed with the rosary, I have received comfort and enlightenment that have strengthened me. I have had many lessons in this short time. I have learned to be the receiver of help, prayers, and love… to be vulnerable and in need… and as I gain strength and move forward and reclaim my ability to stand without aid, I will not forget my pain and desperation… I will not forget the crushing weight… And I am so glad for relief… My heart has grown and I can offer help, prayers, and love to others facing the challenges of life. My compassion springs from that place of knowing, of having lived there myself…
During my time with the rosary a friend was diagnosed with cancer, and many people around me struggled with their own challenges… We may not understand fully why we must endure these trials, and people without faith may just view them as the cruelty of life, but I do believe that our souls expand and grow through all of the pain… When each of us is vulnerable and hurting, those of us who are strong can offer tremendous aid through gesture and through prayer. We all take turns in both of these roles… being the supporter, and being in need of support… we ARE all connected… I can feel it, and it is real…
I intuitively knew when it was time to pass on the rosary… And a note to the person who is receiving my rosary: I wrapped the rosary with my business card because the photo on the card is of a little owl friend of mine who died while I had the rosary. He still has wings, but now he is an angel…
And I thank God for the great gift of connection with animals and nature. Your hand is so evident in these beautiful, living works… But I am sad that for many, the beauty and perfection go unnoticed… You speak to me through nature and I wish that everyone could hear what I hear…
Note cards featuring Cat’s original art.
I wanted to mention that Cat emailed me privately with more information that she rather keep private … but I assure you her story as told was not the end.
~~~~Thank you Cat for your dedication to this initiative and allowing miracles to manifest through your belief. God bless you and yours. I too prayed on that rosary before I sent it to you requesting the most benevolent blessings to manifest for you. You have received divine enlightenment and miracles indeed.~~~~
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