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I had a deep meditation once. In fact it was my very first attempt at meditation on my own. I have always been the type of person to have a wandering mind, that’s why I normally don’t find the joy in reading other’s do since I can’t stay focused. Because of this I always thought I would never be able to meditate and clear my mind of everything… I thought it would be impossible since I am always thinking creatively and my mind doesn’t stop.

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A friend of mine had given me a tip to envision myself filling up with water and that would put me in a state of calm and relaxation. I tried this technique and it didn’t work. I had to imagine something tangible… For me, what did the trick, was to imagine an all white room with white furniture and a big glass window where all you could see was blue sky and a hallway … I guess this is the hall way that led to my visions.

I have only told a few people of this meditation I had some five or more years ago. It actually was my first real, concentrated attempt at meditating. After so much prayer work (prayer being meditative in itself) I wanted to move to the next level and really get divine messages and a clear path.

I didn’t go into my meditation with any expectation, just to know what lied ahead of me and my purpose … Was that generally specific enough? LOL You know, nothing major 😉 Well anyway, I lied down on my couch and got comfortable and I think my hands were at my sides, legs straight. So it began…

Once (and almost immediately) I began to relax and let go, like a movie, it started in my mind. It was more vivid than a thought, more like a dream. Very intense like you are actually there… for those of you who have dreams that feel like they are really happening, this is exactly like how it felt, but I was not asleep. It was like an in between dream and waking state.

The vision started with me in a room. It was blacker than black. The room was a shack that looked like a one room rustic old cottage in the middle of the woods that had been there forever.

My senses were shut off from receiving anything. I realized I had a blindfold on and I must remove it. Once I removed the blindfold, the room was pitch black and I wandered in circles looking for a way out . Not frantically, more so like when you know where you are and looking for a light switch, like I was milling about in the room. The truly extraordinary thing that happened to me was that I knew, I felt, that I was not alone in this room. I felt that some entity was shadowing my steps. In circles I went and there was someone, something, there following me silently but keeping distance.  I finally found a door and stepped out.

It seemed to be 4 or 5am in the middle of barren woods.  Imposing trees without leaves bowed into each other, like a scene from a scary fairy tale. Without a clear path I walked through the woods. This entity followed me some steps behind.

A path began in front of me as there began to be some dawn in the woods. This beginning of a path was covered with boulders and down trees. Like a really rough path in the woods. I had to hurdle and go around all of these ‘obsicles’. The entity followed. The obstacles got smaller and less frequent.

As the path became more cleared of these obstacles and began to become more of a straighter path, now with rocks and smaller debris on it, the trees also became more full of life with leaves and the sun was out like early to mid morning. This entity walked behind me still and closer and closer it got.

The trees and forest became bushes and hedges, the path was now dirt and clear of troublesome rocks, twigs and was clean underfoot with the exception of pebbles. The entity was walking next to me … I felt it.

I had this feeling to look back as now I was out of the woods. I wanted to look back but also felt that it didn’t matter at the same time. I felt like ‘Why look back?’ But at the same time I felt I needed to. I looked behind me and saw nothing. A wall of black and at my heels, nothing. I was standing on the edge of absolutely nothing behind me. Nothing above me. Nothing below me. nothing behind me. The spot I stood in was the beginning on my path and with each step more path developed, but only as much as I was being shown. I could not see ahead of me toa great distance, I was being shownjust enough. I felt the entity was no longer there next to me but maybe, in me? It had disappeared. This was all so surreal … yet felt very real.

I looked forward again and began to walk. The path still dirt and clear with just what you’d expect to see on a dirt road, little pebbles and such. On either side of me was tall grasses that became shorter and shorter until they were about three feet high. At this point a paved path was laid before me and it felt like late morning. This path was made of brick paving stones with that criss-cross pattern (as in real life I love tile and stone floors with the different shapes and patterns).

This paved path was divine. I felt so good walking on it. Both sides as far as I can see was this tall grass blowing in the breeze. The grass began to get shorter. After being on this path a while, a snake slithered out in front of me … I had to stomp on it and kill it … it’s what I had to do. I killed the snake picked it up and cast it aside.

I walked some more and a bunny hopped out in front of me. I bent down, picked it up, and helped it to the other side. I felt that (this is crazy, but this is what I felt) ‘In life you will encounter obstacles and you must deal with some in one way and others in another way. ‘ This is what I felt once I opened my eyes about this encounter.

After I put the bunny aside and he happily hopped into the grass, I started to walk and looked up in front of me. The most magnificent rainbow was in the distance. Glorious and colorful with the sun in perhaps the eleven o’clock position in the sky.

That’s it.

I opened my eyes and tears were streaming down my face. I didn’t know I was crying until I opened my eyes or how long this vision was going on during the time of having it.

This was my life.

My entire life in a vision. Maybe the rainbow will be my 2 pm moment? Maybe the end of my life? I did not know. The rainbow was a promise that all will be joyous and my life will be enraptured in magnificence . I know this for sure. 

As for the entity. Was it Jesus? Was it God himself? All I can tell you is that I knew this entity was the source of all purpose, calm and guidance; and I had to find myself before anyone could help me. I have to find my own strength and path before I could receive assistance or a ‘reinforcemnt ‘ from any other source. I am connected now. I found my way. This spiritual enlightenment was beyond words.

It took me a few years to digest this and rationalize this meditation and vision. It still teaches me things as I look back and recollect it.

I never had heard of anything like this before or read about it. One day when I was visiting a friend in a store called ‘Angel’s Touch’ in NJ (now it is closed) a very spiritual lady and dear friend M’Linda Kula showed me this book with a drawing of Jesus standing in front of a black wall, like in my vision. I was like ‘OMG!!’ as you can imagine. I shuddered to see MY vision in print … This was exactly what I saw, the wall of blackness … nothingness…emptiness. He was showing people to go to him, he was the way or that (the black wall)was the alternative. Nothingness. Not hell, with fire and demons. Just nothing …. Wow. This was weird.

So, friends I know this was a really long post and I left out details because my vision was so radiant and detailed it could be a book. It lasted about forty five minutes I recall.

You can conclude what you will … but this is what happened. And by the way, I did go back to this vision few weeks ago as I was being challenged with issues and knew that the only place to find answers was on this path… on MY path. And the rainbow was not the end of my life. I will tell you about that vision in another post.

Join the mission to pass blessings around the world. This is for you, if you are grateful and know you are blessed or are seeking some guidance to arrive at a spiritual place of positivity. My first post explain how to receive a rosary from Fatima Portugal (I sent 10 out and they are making their way from person to person) Join this initiative and find your path. https://blessingsgoround.wordpress.com/2011/02/23/introduction-to-blessings-go-round-how-to-receive-a-rosary-from-fatima/

Have a most blessed day. Thank you for visiting. Some of my posts are hard for me to share such intimate encounters, so I really hope they benefit you as this is the time I’m being told to share them. God bless.

 

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How do we create a more harmonious space for ourselves? How do we find peace and serenity in a world filled with noise, pollution and toxins? I have to admit, I spend a lot of time alone meditating and praying and I am very blessed to have the environment to practice my prayer and well-being in. This is where I get my messages and feel a sense of peace, calm and guidance. I do thank God for the space I am provided with so I can practice being a better person through my spiritual connection.

What if you don’t have that space due to your environment. I admit it makes it much more difficult. I can suggest to you to go to a park,wake up early before anyone else rises or find a vacant space to meditate and pray in. Is it possible? Can you find that place to connect to spirit and be at peace? If we search we can all find a little nook. This is vital. To really connect and free yourself of the agitating stresses around you are, peace calm and a positive vibe is paramount in achieving a successful meditation and prayer session.

I would like to address one toxin in particular in this post. This is the worst one of all because it is ever-changing and hard to escape; a toxic person.

Sometime we feel guilty for them as we are being manipulated. Sometimes we are the ones that make ourselves feel that we need to be there for them since they always have an issue. Health, money, family, work, etc. I want you to understand I’m not talking about someone who is calling you once in  blue moon to talk about an issue or crossroad in their life, and then you have a hundred more positive communications with them. In fact it is a most divine blessing when our loved ones call upon us to seek guidance and we can genuinely help them.  I am talking about someone who you have come to know as always looking at the negative side of things; one who is always sick or complaining; nothing is ever their fault; they never seem to make good decisions; talks about themselves all the time and never once asks how you are and if they do berates your decisions and blames you for being in your situation. The list goes on, but you get the idea of my definition of a toxic person.

Do not be duped by the ability these toxic people have to manipulate you. They may appear to be weak, helpless, alone, suffering from some illness the comes up when convenient. The good news for these  toxic folks is God has given us the great gift of being blessed to help ourselves! Yahoo!  Yet these people need to vampire your strong, healthy spirit to build themselves up. These relationships must be eliminated from your life. You can pray for someone all you want, but if they are not receiving your prayers you must say good-bye to them with love and know it is between them and God. You cannot heal them. You can give them the spiritual medicine but if they do not take it, you cannot continue treating their illness of ‘toxicity’ as they suck you dry.

Some relationships, especially with family, are very hard to walk away from. You need to make a decision. Does this person bring you down and not make you feel your spiritual best? Are they ever receptive to your good intention? If this is chronic, you must let them go with love. Don’t argue. Bless them with finding the most benevolent resolution for their issues. Be open to the idea they will be enlightened and be back one day.

Do not feed the fire. The more ‘wood’ (all of your good intention) you put in will be consumed by the ‘fire’ (their issues, negativity, anger, etc.)  They must seek their happiness through themselves. Their healing through themselves. Your job is to be strong, spiritual and divinely connected so you can spread positive energy and blessings to those who need it most and have gratitude for your blessings. You are a walking, radiating white light wherever you go. The people around you who are receptive to your shining blessed spirit, despite their circumstances, will feel your good energy. When you have nothing dragging you down, your positive energy will only multiply and crate ripples of peace, love and joy.

Fill the world with positive spirit. Be blessed and pass blessings to all you encounter. Pray and seek the answers on cleansing your life of all negativity. Be vigilant of the negative energy, vampires and toxic people looking to bring you down and steer clear my friends!

If you would like to join the pray and pass on a Fatima Rosary ~ The Blessings Go Round Initiative ~ Please click this link to my first post:

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Have a blessed day filled with love, joy, abundance and guidance 🙂

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I’m sitting in my backyard and it’s a brilliant day out. I have a lot to be thankful for.

The other day I was taking some notes about what to write about until we get some stories coming in from those who are praying on the Fatima rosaries (by the way, one has been sent out to the first person on the waiting list so far. Please see the first post and join us before the waiting list gets really long.)  I was thinking, usually, for those brought up in a strong religious or spiritual home, prayer is part of the daily routine. I however, was raised Catholic but never felt one with my religion because I don’t like how we are made to feel guilty, sin is bad and that was the word (no explanation really) and all the scandals in the church (which were sins, but excused) made me a bit sour. This is why I do not see myself as ‘religious’, however, the fact that Jesus is God’s son and Mary is his mother and so on is very strong with me and there is a God and the spirit of the universe is the reason for all existence and lives within each one of us. I always had a hard time accepting that the bible was written by man, and the translations that some used to preach it are all … well… and not to my taste; maybe one day I will find a church that I feel completely one with… one day. 

Through life I went never fully attaching to a spiritual or religious practice, until my early 30’s… I know I mentioned some of this before. When I had no where else to turn I started listening to my inner self and began to pray (my earlier post tells you the story). I learned the rosary and for a few years I just prayed and prayed … I guess I really had a lot of work to do to reattach ATTACH to spirit. There was lots of crying and trying to understand what am I supposed to do. The day I was inspired to pray for others was one of my biggest and most fulfilling moments. I realized that praying for others was MUCH more peaceful and gratifying than to keep asking for what I wanted. I mean, isn’t that usually the first instinct for those of us that don’t pray ‘Oh please God don’t let this happen to me … I need this … Please God deliver me that…etc.?’  The day I realized it wasn’t about me, it was about what can I do for others is when everything started to open up for me.

Praying for others as well as giving thanks and gratitude led me to a place that you cannot image before you get there becasue it’s hard to know it even exists. Many of you reading who are attached to spirit know what I mean. I know that everything will work out. I KNOW this. One way or another… everything will be fine. I have learned to see the brighter side of things more quickly… all because I pray for others, I know the universe and God give back to me what I’m giving it. If I am theere for others, I know someone will be there for me. If not a physical human, then God. I simply ask ‘Dear Lord, guide me to someone I can help today. I send out a random prayer and blessing to anyone in need. Please bless them with the most benevolent environment for their situation.’

Today just think about others. Once you take the focus off yourself, you have nothing to be stressed over. Once you give your thanks to God, if you believe in him, you know He will provide.  Stop stressing. Know in you heart you are doing the best you can. Give thanks for your blessings and pray for those in need… even if their need is for them to find their own path to gratitude and living in peace and joy. I know people who need to be prayed for, just for them to find their way to a spiritual path. We all know someone who needs to ‘find themselves.’

Pray for others, pray for yourself…. Do you want to join ‘Blessings Go Round’ the initiative? We are praying on rosaries I purchased in Fatima Portugal. These rosary beads will be making their way from person to person around the word. Please see my first post on how to join us. It’s free and this is a group effort to spread the love, joy and blessings. Grow strong with prayer and find your clear path through you and God.

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Thank you. That is the one and only prayer that needs to be said. As I mentioned before … Prayer is not about a religion. If nothing else, give thanks for your blessings and say ‘Thank You’ to the universe and to God for blessing you with all of the beautiful things in your life and the problems too.

 If it weren’t for hardships and issues we would not grow or appreciate the happy blessings. All hardships and struggles are unsolved problems. Thank God he gave you the opportunity to figure out a solution and an opportunity to grow because out of difficulties always blooms a new life of opportunity, understanding, change, movement, positive energy and more.

Just take a moment from what ever you are doing and say ‘thank you’. Say it again and again. The more thanks you give the more you will have to be thankful for. Read that last line again. I don’t think you will disagree.

Let the blessings flow.

Maybe today is the day you decide to be a part of something grand. Read my first post and join the Blessings Go Round movement. My personal initiative to spread blessings around the world. Click this link >>>

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Here are the rosaries! As this being my second post there are two things I wanted to include; First, a close up of the 10 rosaries that I have and will send out; Second, … We have swallows! Rosary beads from Fatima Portugal; Blessings Go Round

Okay, I’ll tell you about my magnificent little creatures first. In our community here in Portugal, there are a few properties for sale and not maintained. Aside from uncut grass, debris and a poorly maintained vacant property, the big deal is the half full swimming pools. A haven for mosquitoes. I hate mosquitoes … and flies. I don’t like getting bit, nor do I like the fact that they carry diseases for us and our pets. I really, really was dreading them on a walk the other day with my husband and dog. The next day I woke up to find swallows nesting on the side of my house! What a splendid blessing we received! Just another way He has solved one of my problems in His own way. I complain about bugs, I get bug catchers! See how blessings work? It’s not what you ask for it’s how what you ask for gets delivered to you and you realizing the magnificence in the blessing. Here is a photo of my swallow working on his nest:

Here are the ten rosaries. Nothing fancy, but they are all pretty and each different. A side note; I have received only 1 request so far. I am a bit surprised that this is going slowly. Maybe people don’t need blessings? Maybe people don’t know who other than themselves to pray for so they are blessed? Maybe there is a lack of faith out there?? (I really hope not) I’m not sure … I would have jumped at the opportunity myself if I had seen this proposition somewhere. Well, as You who read this and really do ‘believe’ and have faith, you are the ones I am speaking too. I know you will step forward and be a part of this and share your miraculous stories as they happen.

 

Rosary #1 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Will you join us in Blessings Go Round? I hope you do 🙂
Please visit first post of my blog for more information on receiving a rosary and being part of Blessings Go Round.